This really isn't an update. I was just happy and wanted to share.  So, anyone who has read this has probably read something about Ben, and most of the ups and downs we have had together.  Well, after almost a year and a half of dating, Ben proposed and we are engaged!  After this semester of college I'm transferring schools and moving down to Georgia, where we will get married and start our life together. I can honestly say I've never been so happy in my life

Haha welp, obviously I'm back from Georgia, and had an amazing time. Lol to answer my own question I would definitely have my parents walk in on me having sex.. I'm pretty sure walking in on them would be both mentally and emotionally scarring haha, so yeah. Here's yer update! Enjoy!!

*.:.The day I met you, my life changed. The way you make me feel is too hard to explain, you make me smile in a special kind of way, you make me fall deeper for you every day, and when I look into your eyes, I know it's true. There's no one else in the world for me but you.:.*

*.:.It turns out, sometimes you have to do the wrong thing. Sometimes you have to make a big mistake to figure out how to make things right. Mistakes are painful, but they're the only way to find out who you really are. I know who I am no, I know what I want.:.*

*.:.Remembering you is easy. I do it every day. Missing you is the heartache that never goes away.:.*

*.:.So tell me all about it. Tell me about the plans you're making. Tell me one thing before I go, tell me how I am supposed to live without you now hat I've been loving you for so long, and how am I supposed to carry on when all that I've been living for is gone?.:.*

*.:.The worst battle is between what you know and how you feel.:.*

*.:.One of the hardest things in life is having the words in your heart that you cannot speak.:.*

*.:.You don't realize how much it means to me when you say that you remember.:.*

*.:.Even though neither of us know what the future holds, I know one thing for sure; you're the best thing that ever happened to me.:.*

*.:.When people walk away, let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.:.*

*.:.I don't think you will ever comprehend the hold you have on me.:.*

*.:.Truthfully, you're the only thing that's ever really made me feel beautiful.:.*

*.:.Some things you can't see with your eyes, only with your heart((THE LAND BEFORE TIME)).:.*

*.:.All the little things that annoyed me so much are the things I miss the most when your gone.:.*

*.:.Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow. We must fall in order to know. Sometimes, our vision clears only after our eyes are washed away with tears.:.*

*.:.True strength is being able to hold it together when no one else would blame you for falling apart.:.*

*.:.Let's be honest. Sometimes, there is nothing harder in life than being happy for somebody else ((SEX AND THE CITY)).:.*

*.:.People hold onto something because they fear nothing that great wil ever happen to them again.:.*

*.:.Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do.:.*

*.:.The greatest challenge in life is finding someone who knows all your flaws, differences, and mistakes and still loves you with everything they have.:.*

*.:.It will always be me and you, becuase to me your everything I've always needed, and thats the kind of love you just can't let go of. You'll always be able ot have me and thats something I can promise you.:.*

Yayyyy I'm going to Georgia to go see Benjamin for the weekend! My plane leaves at 11 tomorrow and I wont be back till Sunday!

By the way, I would definitely rather watch porn with my parents, rather than watching porn starring them!

New question.. Would you rather walk in on your parents having sex, or have your parents walk in on you having sex?!

Update.. Cause I'm bored

*.:.There's a piece of you that's here with me. It's everywhere I go, it's everything I see. When I sleep, when I dream it gets me by, I can make believe that you're here tonight.:.*

*.:.Life is made up of smiles, tears, and memories.The smiles my fade, and the tears will dry, but the memories will be forever.:.*

*.:.The way you make me smile could outshine a million sunsets.:.*

*.:.Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.:.*

*.:.When I wake up the first thing I want to do it see your face.:.*

*.:.Loving someone requires a leap of faith, and a someone that's worth leaping for.:.*

*.:.If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you're sad, or unsure, or you lost complete faith; promise me that you'll try to see yourself through my eyes((PS I LOVE YOU)).:.*

*.:.People should fall in love with their eyes closed. Just close your eyes. Don't look and it's magic((ANDY WARHOL)).:.*

*.:.So what if we prank call people on Friday nights? So what if we think "yo momma" jokes are funny. Why does it matter that we sometimes talk like we're mentally challenged, an dance like we have to pee? We're best friends, and we love it. Now, go ahead, and continue with your boring, normal, and oh so mature lives.:.*

*.:.Sorry hun, but unlike you, I'm not the doorknob where everyone gets a turn. I'm more of the casino, where only the lucky ones hit the jackpot.:.*

*.:.Nowadays it's practically impossible to be sure about anything. But I'm positive about this. I want to be with you. There's only one of every person, and no matter how much alike they may be there's never going to be another you. You are the one that I want.:.*

*.:.It's hard to stay mad when there's so much beauty in this world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much. My heart fills up like a balloon thats about to burst, then I remember to relax and stop tying to hold onto it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure, but don't worry, you will some day.:.*

*.:.The worst thing you could you can do is let your head second guess your heart.:.*

*.:.You know, I've always had this thing for eyes. Especially yours. Today I finally realized why. It's because they never lie. Even though you try to suppress your smile when we're together, your eyes always let me know how happy you are to see me.:.*

Haha so apparently the cool thing to do is post a question for people to answer? Is this a way to get commenters? Let's give it a go...

Would you rather watch porn with your parents, or porn starring your parents! I'll tell you my answer next post!

Update cause I'm bored and not tired! Kinda short.. Sorry! COMMENT AND SUBSCRIBE PLEASE!

Love takes effort and acceptance. It won't always be a happy ride. You'll cry when you're hurt, you'll be sad when your ignored. But hold on and always remember; Love hurts when its real.:.*

*.:.You make me happier than I ever thought I could be, and if you let me, I'll spend the rest of my life trying to make you feel the same way((FRIENDS)).:.*

*.:.The one thing I'm scared most about right now is that I'll lose the one thing that makes me heart skip a beat every second of the day.  Having him there to hug, to hold, and to kiss makes me want to wake up in the morning and stay awake at night.  I smile and laugh every second I'm with him and it feels like time just stops when he's there with me. I cherish the time I spend with him now because who knows if something would ever happen to break us apart. All I really want is for him to be there with me for me, not for any other reason.  This is the first time I feel that I can't screw this up, because if I do, I know he'll just leave and I'm not ready to let this go. He's real, the one understands me out of every guy out there that I've ever met or known. I'm scared to get hurt again. Too many tears lost, too much time wasted.  I hope that he's the boy thats going to be there for me always. The only who actually keeps his promise.:.*

*.:.Maybe we're moving too fast; I don't know. But, for the first time in my life.. I really don't care.:.*

*.:.After that night, I don't think I can ever forget how you made me feel and how hours later I still had the butterflies from when you held my hand.:.*

*.:.He looked at me, with the same look in his eyes as the first day we met. And I knew, right then, I could never let him look at anyone else that way again.:.*

*.:.A random hookup is like a half eaten sandwitch in the fridge; you don't know who ate it last, but you know that it's 2 am and you're hungry.:.*

*.:.I know better than anyone what happens when you get attached.:.*

*.:.There will always be that one summer where everything changed.:.*

*.:.The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong((GHANDI)).:.*

*.:.Me? I'm scared of everthing. I'm scared of what I feel, of what I said, of who I am, but most of all I'm scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of me life, the way I feel when I'm with you((is this from dirty dancing?)).:.*

*.:.This is why you should never get your hopes up; This is why you should see the glass as half empty; so when the whole thing spills, you aren't as devasted.:.*

*.:.The bad thing about a girl with a broken heart is that she starts to hand out the pieces to anyone who comes around.:.*

*.:.There are mistakes that I have made. Some chances I threw away, Some roads I never should've taken. Been some signs I didn't see. Hearts that I hurt needlessly. Some wounds that I wish I could have one more chance to mend, but it doesn't make a difference. The past can't be rewritten. You get the life you're given.:.*

*.:.Good girls are just better at lying.:.*

*.:.Never settle for average.. It's just as close to the bottom as it is to the top.:.*

*.:.Fuck fear. I'm doing it, I did it, and I plan on doing it again.:.*

*.:.Love is a deadly feeling. It gives you passion, but jealousy. It gives you sorrow, but happiness. It gives you, it makes you, and it breaks you.:.*